You know it makes my heart beat… … .. (Are you ready for it?)

02.13.16 -1
Music/title: Happy Up Here (Boys Noize Remix); Röyksopp
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“My favorite record is playing again..”

. . . .. .

 

Sometimes I think of you.
I think of how it was, and how it could’ve been..
( …Wondering if you still visit? )

I often find myself wishing circumstances were different,
But we both know that can never be.

 

….Here’s to hoping hatred outlasts everything else.

 

/ / /

 
You know I really like it.

And she runs, and she waits… ( And I wait )

01.23.16 -1
Music/title: Tyler; The Toadies
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“I will be with her tonight!”

. .. . ..

 

I thought I was so, so sure of it all..
Is it actually necessary to go through every single desire?
…Will this achieve my sense of self-fulfillment?

I’d like to think not….

. .. . ..

 
“I gave up that life for her.”

Maybe this is what he meant.
I thought finding someone to embrace that life was all that mattered…
And then I thought differently.   I thought I was wrong.

 

….I fucking hope I haven’t been right from the start.

 

/ / /

 
I hear the fear in her voice…

Another day, another door, Another high, another low… (Rock bottom, rock bottom, rock bottom!)


Music/title: Roots; Imagine Dragons
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“I’m going back to my roots.”

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Perhaps this is how it’s meant to end..
Maybe that’s just it– Maybe we’re never really meant to know the outcome
our Oh-so-Irreverent choices lead us to believe we’re dealt.
My choices?  …..I fucking hate them.

Just like every other human on the planet-
I want my life simple.  Complete.
We want this cookie cutter lifestyle, but here we always are…
Dealing ourselves another round of cards, when the game is over and lost.

 

Do we ever really quit?
Is there ever really an “end game” like they lead us to believe?

 

Heh.

 

 

I s’pose here’s to finding out….

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Written near the end of last year, but god be damned- I couldn’t end my project on such a depressing note…
So here we are.   Updated blog, with non-uplifting thoughts.

 

More to come. ::smiles::