I found the cure to growing older..

Music/title: I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy; Fall Out Boy
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“You can’t cover it up.”

. …. ..


Is it normal to feel this much disappointment?
I mean, I know it’s fairly common, but this is borderline suffocating….

I keep thinking I can hold out. I can make it work!
..Only to be let down once again.

I hate them. ALL of them.
I hope the fucking cunts burn in their sleep.


Maybe I’m just jealous.
Jealous that I am not them.
Jealous that I didn’t stay where I belonged….



…Can I stop being an adult now?

/ / /

It’s so, so fitting…

05.30.15 [36/52] Ohh, love is a polaroid- Better in picture, but never can fill the void.. (How did it come to this?)

Music/title: Polaroid; Imagine Dragons
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“Your story sounds so amazing- I’m so proud of you for making your way through so many struggles and coming out on top.”

dan reynolds

.. . .. ..

Just when you least expect it, there life goes- Blindsiding everything you know.
And just like that, everything changes…


/ / /
And I am the color of boom..

05.23.15 [35/52] Can you save, Can you save my… Can you save my heavy dirty soul? (For me, for me, oh)

Music/title: Heavydirtysoul; Twenty One Pilots
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Isn’t it always this way?

. .. . ..


Most of the time it blends together.
Each session running into the next- But this… This time..
God, to be in that moment again..

Your nails digging unforgivingly into my hips,
My own body completely crushed beneath the weight of you-
Convulsion, after convulsion, after convulsion,
It’s always this way..


And I am never more complete, when completely without control.

/ / /

Oh, oh, I’m falling..

04.04.15 [28/52] Can you hear the silence, can you see the dark… ( Can you fix the broken? )

Music/title: Can You Feel My Heart; Bring Me the Horizon
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“Can you feel… Can you feel my heart?”

. . .. ….


Looks like this is it-
On some level I suppose I should’ve known.
It’s always this way, and somehow I think it always will be…



“I long for that feeling to not feel at all.”


/ / /

And I’m drowning in the déjà vu…