Lady, running down to the riptide, taken away to the dark side… (I wanna be your left hand man)

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Music/title: Riptide; Vance Joy
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“Oh, oh, and they come unstuck.”

. .. ….

 

Go back five years ago,
and I’d never have taken it.

Go back a few years ago,
and I’d have definitely considered it.

Go back a week ago,
and I almost asked you for it.

 

 

You always find a cure before I find the disease.
….Can we do this again?

/ / /

 
And she’s been living on the highest shelf…

But it’s collisions we need to remind us that we’re alive…

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Music/title: This Ain’t No Place For Animals; Hands Like Houses
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“Tear back the skin to find,
to chase a pulse back home.”

.. . …

 

[ Life is just so goddamn hard… Every time I get to the good parts, it feels like something else takes them away. I feel one day I won’t be able to handle anything else, and that I’ll just break down. ]

 
“Then I will pick your pieces back up and put you back together.
Because I will never let you give up.  And even if you can’t believe in yourself,
I will make you believe in the me that believes in you.”

 

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And we still know nothing…

And forgive me love for wanting you… (Oh you, oh you…..)

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Music/title: All Choked Up; Say Anything
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“Oh can you see me now?”

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I felt the anger, the frustration all bubbling up inside me.
But there you lay- So small…  So caught up in fighting your inner demons.
I felt it all melting.  Felt the tiny strings of my heart pulling tight with each thought….
Fucking worthless- Piece of insignificant shit.  …How could you?! 

I closed my eyes, pressing my head against yours..
My hands clutched at the base of your neck.
I let my lips find you.
I felt your apathy.  Your hatred.  And I felt every demon.
…I kissed you again.  And again… I felt your seclusion falling away,
And I felt you kiss me back…

 

Is this what it means?
To so strongly love that you cease your own emotions… 

 

And you’ll never know anyone now….

10.19.15 -1

Music/title: Fog; From Indian Lakes
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“But if you get up now, you can try to survive.”

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I would’ve given you anything in that moment-
Whatever you named, it was yours…

Holding your head in my lap, as I did a year ago…
I felt your tears streaming onto my skin-
My heart aching to watch you desperately cling to the boy inside.

 

You’re never really old enough to deal with these things.
….And I’m sorry you have to.

 

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I’ve been trying to figure it out my whole life…