06.27.15 [40/52] I’m dying to feel again.. (Anything at all) But- Oh, I feel nothin’, nothin’, nothin’ (…Nothing at all)

06.23.15
Music/title: Gold; Imagine Dragons
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“But now you can’t tell the false from the real..”

 

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He looked at me the same way I looked at him..
Like he wanted to stop everything, and immerse himself in my world- To get away from normalcy and routine
His eyes felt hollow as he stared down at me ..As if trapped within his own personal sinking boat.

I know he was speaking to me.   And I could hear the words..
But all I could think was, God… I want to save to him. 
I want to tell him that there is more to life than what you’re given.  That it does get better-
That the harder you push, the more you get.  That your life does NOT define you!
That you are not “Imagine Dragons-“  You are not this person that the world has made you out to be..
You are the boy that grew up with dreams bigger than the shoes life had predetermined him to fill.

That maybe-Maybe that void you feel deep inside the pit of your stomach was never meant to be filled.
That I know it’s exhausting, and that it hurts to feel so empty in a world that is so clearly full
and at our constant disposal… But what if our void is supposed to be there? 
What if we are never meant to be complete?

 
Maybe that void we all feel is what actually drives us-
What is supposed to push us to constantly demand more from life.
Maybe your void is like my void…

 

 

And maybe we’re not so different after all.

 
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I’ve never seen this side of you..

01.31.15 [19/52] I’ve been tryin’ to keep my grip, Yeah I think I’m over this.. I can hear it now ( Oh no, Oh no-o )

01.25.15 -6
Music/title: Cardiac Arrest; Bad Suns
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The unexpected- This is why we love.

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I wasn’t going to ask… I didn’t think you’d remember
There I sat, quietly trying to think of the song that I wanted so very badly.
I tried putting myself back in front of the stage- Surrounded by alcohol and carelessly made socialization.
I was so mad at myself for not remembering to write it down or look it up that night.

Moments away from giving up, I figured it couldn’t hurt to ask….
 

I hadn’t been that taken aback from you in so long
You merely snapped your fingers, threw both feet firmly down, and grinned at me..

“Cardiac Arrest.”

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…this.  These are the reasons we love.
It’s the little things… Such as someone simply knowing you so well as to look up and remember the name of a song- Keeping it a secret, because they know somewhere down the line you’re GOING to remember.  Or you’re going to NEED it.  And it will just be there.
 

Like it was never gone in the first place.

 

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High voltage in her lips, I’ll try my best….