And she runs, and she waits… ( And I wait )

01.23.16 -1
Music/title: Tyler; The Toadies
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“I will be with her tonight!”

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I thought I was so, so sure of it all..
Is it actually necessary to go through every single desire?
…Will this achieve my sense of self-fulfillment?

I’d like to think not….

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“I gave up that life for her.”

Maybe this is what he meant.
I thought finding someone to embrace that life was all that mattered…
And then I thought differently.   I thought I was wrong.

 

….I fucking hope I haven’t been right from the start.

 

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I hear the fear in her voice…

05.30.15 [36/52] Ohh, love is a polaroid- Better in picture, but never can fill the void.. (How did it come to this?)

05.26.15
Music/title: Polaroid; Imagine Dragons
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“Your story sounds so amazing- I’m so proud of you for making your way through so many struggles and coming out on top.”

xox
dan reynolds

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Just when you least expect it, there life goes- Blindsiding everything you know.
And just like that, everything changes…

 

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And I am the color of boom..

01.31.15 [19/52] I’ve been tryin’ to keep my grip, Yeah I think I’m over this.. I can hear it now ( Oh no, Oh no-o )

01.25.15 -6
Music/title: Cardiac Arrest; Bad Suns
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The unexpected- This is why we love.

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I wasn’t going to ask… I didn’t think you’d remember
There I sat, quietly trying to think of the song that I wanted so very badly.
I tried putting myself back in front of the stage- Surrounded by alcohol and carelessly made socialization.
I was so mad at myself for not remembering to write it down or look it up that night.

Moments away from giving up, I figured it couldn’t hurt to ask….
 

I hadn’t been that taken aback from you in so long
You merely snapped your fingers, threw both feet firmly down, and grinned at me..

“Cardiac Arrest.”

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…this.  These are the reasons we love.
It’s the little things… Such as someone simply knowing you so well as to look up and remember the name of a song- Keeping it a secret, because they know somewhere down the line you’re GOING to remember.  Or you’re going to NEED it.  And it will just be there.
 

Like it was never gone in the first place.

 

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High voltage in her lips, I’ll try my best….