I found the cure to growing older..

01-21-17-6
Music/title: I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy; Fall Out Boy
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“You can’t cover it up.”

. …. ..

 

Is it normal to feel this much disappointment?
I mean, I know it’s fairly common, but this is borderline suffocating….

I keep thinking I can hold out. I can make it work!
..Only to be let down once again.

I hate them. ALL of them.
I hope the fucking cunts burn in their sleep.

 

Maybe I’m just jealous.
Jealous that I am not them.
Jealous that I didn’t stay where I belonged….

::sighs::

 

…Can I stop being an adult now?

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It’s so, so fitting…

01.24.15 [18/52] And I slept in last night’s clothes and tomorrow’s dreams… ( But they’re not quite what they seem )

01.24.15
Music/title: Uma Thurman; Fall Out Boy
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“It’s just like watching porn.. She would never *leave* me for it.”

. .. . . .

 

The desire is there, burning underneath my skin. 
I can feel it every moment I’m around another girl.  I so desperately want to reach out and touch them.. To press my body tightly against theirs, sinking my teeth deep into their soft flesh.  I want to feel their mouth moving across my skin until it absolutely suffocates me.

I want. I want. I want….

 

..If only these things were as easy as they used to be.

 

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Bury me till I confess…