And days die young… (When you’re gone, and you’re gone)


Music/title: Oceans; The Fray
_ _

 

“There goes the sun, oceans away!”

. . . ..

 

Better and better it gets.
This is where I needed to be.

.

I want it all.
I want everything life took from me- All of it.
I refuse to feel guilt,
because I deserve this.

The hand life deals does not dictate the end result- don’t you let anyone tell you otherwise.

I should be dead.
But I am not.

.

 

So throw away those shitty cards.
Open a new deck- A new world.
Re-imagine life the way you want,

And take it.

Another door, another question- I’m going ’round in circles, wondering when I’ll reach the end… (and I can’t help but give in)


Music/title: 1000 Doors; The Living Tombstone
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“I’m losing the sense of where I am.”

. .. .

 

Exhaustion doesn’t even begin to cover it.

I miss this.
I miss the therapeutic nature of it all. I want to peel back the layers I have pasted onto myself; to escape the norm. This is what we aim for, right? The materialism. The cookie cutters, and decisive actions.

I can feel how close we are.

 

…Why can’t we grasp it?

 

But you held your course to some distant war, in the corners of your mind…


Music/title: Angela; The Lumineers
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“Let the exits pass, all the tar and glass-
‘Til the road and sky align.”

. . .

 

I just need to catch my breath,
then everything will be okay, right?

. .
 

The dark parts of my brain are seeping through.

[ But you did it- you’re FREE. ]

.
 

Is that so?
I claim the void is supposed to be empty,

 

So why can’t I stop trying to fill it?
 

And the- And the smile it just, floats away.. (As if the world is satisfied when night turns into day)


Music/title: Waves; Electric Guest
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“Oh, my mind, is all
Washed away, all away.”

. . .

 

More uneventful than most birthdays, I would say.
Yet, with the right company-
One of the best…….

.

Dear Arden,

I love you.
I’d take a gluten free snack adventure over gifts any day.

Bunches of love,
wifeo13.

 

/ / /

 
And always such a pretty thing..

And he told me, “Son, when they all come looking for you, where you gonna run?”


Music/title: Snowship (Thomas Jack Remix); Benjamin Francis Leftwich
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“Your heart’s wired up to the eyes in your head,
and they’re flashing bright.”

. .. …
 

I look back, and I am reminded every reason my heart latched onto yours.
The reasons I denied for so long, now seem so very important.

Still, my chest swells and collapses within your eyes…

.

A ta?

/ / /
 
“I was only looking for the treasure in the dark.”

My life, my love, my drive, it came from… Pain! (You made me a, you made me a believer, believer)


Music/title: Believer; Imagine Dragons
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“Don’t you tell me what you think that I can be.”

… . .

 

Again.
and Again. and Again.
It’s what you want, right?
Your goals quickly coming to an end.

Who will you be now?
What will inflict the pain you so desire?

. . 

“You made me a,
You made me a believer.”

/ / /

 
Never ending shifting.
The changes are so frequent lately I can’t keep up.
But we’re happy if we’re not paying too close attention to the detail, right?

Happy…

 

Yes.
I do believe I am.