Music/title: Admit It!; Say Anything
“Cause I’m proud of my life and the things that I have done;
Proud of myself and the loner I’ve become.”
. . … …. .
I’ve never cried at a concert before.
I’ve never felt such a connection with a band as this.
Perhaps it’s his lyrics.
Perhaps it’s his own bi-polar disorder’s pertinence to my mother.
Maybe he makes me hate her just a little bit less..
Seventeen years, two days, and fifty-four songs later-
Max Bemis still performs each and every note as if it’s his first.
The emotion portrayed was breathtaking,
and with his final ‘Walk Through Hell’ I couldn’t help myself…
/ / /
And I say yeah (what do you..)
Music/title: Angela; The Lumineers
“Let the exits pass, all the tar and glass-
‘Til the road and sky align.”
. . .
I just need to catch my breath,
then everything will be okay, right?
The dark parts of my brain are seeping through.
[ But you did it- you’re FREE. ]
Is that so?
I claim the void is supposed to be empty,
So why can’t I stop trying to fill it?
Music/title: It’s Only (feat. Zyra); ODESZA
“It’s only slaughter,
We’re only liars,
It’s only blood.”
To be wanted; to be needed- A mutual addiction.
It’s all you ever desired, Da?
Such a strong emotion...
But you sure know that, don’t you?
[ yes. ]
I know you miss it- The way it’s all played..
That’s why you choose them, isn’t it?
Because who else could control what you have obtained..
The psycho and sociopaths.
The unloved and unwanted of society- You crave them;
Crave the mutual addiction of the unattainable.
[ “They’re only thoughts that I’m having;
Thoughts safe within my head.” ]
To be wanted; to be needed is simple.
Oh, but to be desired by them….
True emotional ecstasy.
. . .
"You’re only crying, you’re only dying, you’re only dead."
Music/title: Father; The Front Bottoms
“I’ll do the pushups,
I’ll wear the makeup.”
.. .. …
It feels almost as if I’ve misplaced the entire door to my home-
Left wandering aimlessly with keys in hand.
It’s coming back.
Slowly, but surely…
..I’m finding the door to myself again.
/ / /
I’ll do whatever he wants all night.
Music/title: Lone Digger; Caravan Palace
“Your head has no right to say no- Tonight it’s “Ready, set, go!”
. .. …
I can’t recommend this song and music video enough..
There really is just nothing quite like electronic swing music.
And there really is no one that does it quite like Caravan Palace.
Things have been awful.
I am awful.
But I suppose we are forever moving forward.
Even when we don’t want to…
Who the fuck am I lately?
Even I don’t know.
Music/title: Polaroid; Imagine Dragons
“Your story sounds so amazing- I’m so proud of you for making your way through so many struggles and coming out on top.”
.. . .. ..
Just when you least expect it, there life goes- Blindsiding everything you know.
And just like that, everything changes…
/ / /
And I am the color of boom..
Music/title: Cardiac Arrest; Bad Suns
The unexpected- This is why we love.
. .. . . .
I wasn’t going to ask… I didn’t think you’d remember
There I sat, quietly trying to think of the song that I wanted so very badly.
I tried putting myself back in front of the stage- Surrounded by alcohol and carelessly made socialization.
I was so mad at myself for not remembering to write it down or look it up that night.
Moments away from giving up, I figured it couldn’t hurt to ask….
I hadn’t been that taken aback from you in so long…
You merely snapped your fingers, threw both feet firmly down, and grinned at me..
.. .. . ..
…this. These are the reasons we love.
It’s the little things… Such as someone simply knowing you so well as to look up and remember the name of a song- Keeping it a secret, because they know somewhere down the line you’re GOING to remember. Or you’re going to NEED it. And it will just be there.
Like it was never gone in the first place.
/ / /
High voltage in her lips, I’ll try my best….
Music/title: Kind; Eli August And The Abandoned Buildings
On one hand, I find myself wishing I had more free time in my day to day life.
On the other.. I really do enjoy the busy feeling of moving from one thing to the next.
I remember two years back, that’s all my life was.
Event after event after event.. It was never enough for me.
It always gave a sense of purpose.
As if to say, “Yes. I am absolutely living my life to the fullest!”
.. . . .
But it’s when taking these photos that I really feel alive. [ ..Snap ! ]
And that moment is forever etched into my life. No other moment will ever be like that one..
/ / /
Take me down to where the river bends..