But we couldn’t do this to ourselves if it was never worth it, never worth it… (I don’t know how not to fuck this up again)


Music/title: Don’t Fuck This Up; Andrew Applepie
_ _

 

“I swear I’m not trying to fuck you up.”

. .

 

I saw myself in her;
A former self-

A truly dedicated slave.

Surely she’s still alive in there.

 

The older I get, the further away it becomes.
A more distant dream.
One I used to have, to want daily..

Where did it go?
Who have I become?

It’s okay if I like the changes, right?

 

Right.

.

[ You know you could always ask him.
He knows more about you than you think.

..Don’t forget how this all began. ]

 

/ / /

 

Good Mythical Morning.

::smiles::
 

When everything has to turn, and march onward.. (Only fall if you’re sure that you fall forward)


Music/title: Changes; Mutemath
_ _

 

“I’m not understood.”

.. .. ……

 

Life has been one roller coaster after another lately.
I don’t know what’s up or down, and I’m not entirely sure that’s how I want it.

But that’s normal right?
The uncertainty?
Aren’t we always uncertain about something in our lives?

I’m unsure about this.

 

But, maybe we are overdue…

 

They’re bold; The knots that bind her love- The product of desire to inspire selfish harmony, Oh.. (And what I want is your body)


Music/title: Freaky Love; Captain Kidd
_ _

 

“My vaccine;
Recurring Siamese dream-
Illuminate hallucinations burnt into the back of your mind..”

. . .. .

 

I see the remnants of the fire, but where is the spark?

.

The slow down is building.
The desire is fueling,
But I can’t seem to ignite.

. .

 

“And what I need
Is your body
(Your freaky love)”

 

She said, “Drink that love don’t demand it. ‘Cause baby I can’t stand it when you look so pathetic…”


Music/title: Young Robot; Dance Gavin Dance
_ _

 

“Feeling like a savage,
You know I gotta have it.”

. ..

 

I thought I would enjoy firing her.
It was so justified, you know?

But here I am.
Drinking with Dance Gavin Dance.. Reminiscing in 2013.

What am I doing?

*sigh*

 

Two more months.
I can keep it together for two more months. ..Right?

/ / /

 
It’s been long time coming..