05.30.15 [36/52] Ohh, love is a polaroid- Better in picture, but never can fill the void.. (How did it come to this?)

05.26.15
Music/title: Polaroid; Imagine Dragons
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“Your story sounds so amazing- I’m so proud of you for making your way through so many struggles and coming out on top.”

xox
dan reynolds

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Just when you least expect it, there life goes- Blindsiding everything you know.
And just like that, everything changes…

 

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And I am the color of boom..

03.14.15 [25/52] Take your time, and I won’t ask why… (You don’t have to be anyone)


Music/title: Fog; From Indian Lakes
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“This is what I imagine the exact opposite of dying to feel like.”

 

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[ I fucking love this.  Is this what you feel all the time?? ]

“No, but it is a good feeling.”

[ I almost didn’t go there.  I was so nervous.. I thought of every excuse as to why I couldn’t.  When, in reality, I was simply scared-  Scared to step outside my comfort zone.  Scared to put myself out there… To face disappointment. ]

 

“My policy is-
Punch your comfort zone in the face.”

 

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“You’re now stuck with that feeling forever..”

02.28.15 [23/52] Pick me up, dust me off, give me breath and let me cough…

02.28.15
Music/title: Tongues; Joywave
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“Sometimes, I think, they’re all just speaking tongues.”

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Every breath I take is a direct result of the past decisions I’ve made.
Every single thing is a direct result of the decisions I’ve made…

I get caught in this infinite loop sometimes…
[ What if I’d never gotten the job, or the one that followed? ]
[ What if I’d realized that girl at work was hitting on me, and ended up with her instead?  ]
[ What if I’d never left at all? ]

 

It’s this endless, endless cycle..
One in which I’ll drown myself until I can’t tell if it’s spinning or standing still.

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I find it horribly amusing that I have no qualms in my lack of belief in a god,
But this… This is what really gets me.

 

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Drag me back, collect my thoughts…