Music/title: Vicarious; Tool
[ I dreamt of her again. ]
Isn’t it always this way? [ No. It was different this time. ]
She was sane? [ No, not quite. ] Oh, but that room… You were in her room again, weren’t you?
[ Yes. ]
It felt more real, didn’t it?
[ Yes. I could feel her beside me.
I could feel my disappointment with every word she didn’t hear me say.. ]
You still feel trapped in that room, don’t you?
[ Yes.. I feel I’ll never fully escape. ]
/ / /
Ten years later. And here I am..
Still sixteen, having one sided arguments with my essentially dead mother.
. .. .. .
When will it finally be enough?
Your actual death? Is that what I’m waiting for? ..Do you think then I’ll feel at peace?
Do you think then I’ll stop fucking dreaming about your insanity?
Do you think then I’ll stop envisioning my fists pounding relentlessly into your fucking flesh?!
. .. .. .
I don’t think there’s anything normal about this anymore.