I found the cure to growing older..

. …. ..

Is it normal to feel this much disappointment?
I mean, I know it’s fairly common, but this is borderline suffocating….

I keep thinking I can hold out. I can make it work!
..Only to be let down once again.

I hate them. ALL of them.
~~I hope the fucking cunts burn in their sleep.~~

Maybe I’m just jealous.
Jealous that I am not them.
Jealous that I didn’t stay where I belonged….

::sighs::

…Can I stop being an adult now?

/ / /

Lady, running down to the riptide, taken away to the dark side… (I wanna be your left hand man)

Music/title: Riptide; Vance Joy
_ _

. .. ….

Go back five years ago,
~~and I’d never have taken it.~~

Go back a few years ago,
~~and I’d have definitely considered it.~~

Go back a week ago,
and I almost asked you for it.

You always find a cure before I find the disease.
….Can we do this again?

/ / /

Music/title: Can You Feel My Heart; Bring Me the Horizon
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. . .. ….

Looks like this is it-
On some level I suppose I should’ve known.
It’s always this way, and somehow I think it always will be…

“I long for that feeling to not feel at all.”

/ / /