01.17.15 [17/52] And I may search the world for truth, but it’s only another word for you…

01.18.15
Music/title: You Were My Home; Danielle Ate the Sandwich
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“You were a happy dream in a life that’s been nothing but a hellish nightmare.
Those days that I spent with you, they were the only good days I have ever known.”
~ Lucy; Elfen Lied

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Everything changes this year.
For the good.  For the better.  For me.

 

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And I am found when I found you..

Fuck you if you love a car for it’s paint job; love you if you love a car for the road trips. (Show me the miles on your arms..)

03.08.13. -2
 
Music/title: Sloppy Seconds; Watsky
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Let’s throw everything to the wind. Let’s say, ‘Fuck it all!’ Let’s evolve; let the chips fall where they may.
And never question the actions we have with the best intentions.
You want to feel invincible?
 
Just be..
 
… .. . .. . .
 
“But don’t paint me like the good guy ‘cause every time I write
I get to choose the angle that you view me, and select the nicest light.”

 
~ Tiny Glowing Screens (Part 2); Watsky
 

10.23.12 [301] You wrecked me when you stepped out.

10.23.12
 
Music/title: Wounded Healer (Live! from the Troubadour); Watsky
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It’s never enough for me.. To feel wanted has become such an addiction,
I don’t think I even realize when I’m giving in to it lately. It’s usually not a problem.
Unless.. ..Well, unless I really care about the person. And said person falls in love with me.
And I love someone else, who they then have to hear about every time they see me.
..swallowing their love for me like a fucking brick.
 
“I don’t know. In a way I like being all the love with you, even when it hurts.
But I have decided that we can only be friends. I know that has always been known,
but I live in a fantasy world you see. ..and have these weird delusions of things that I think could be.
So I am going to get over myself tonight.”

 
He’s been playing it off as though it’s nothing so well for so long..
This hurts. I’m hurting him, and it’s hurting me..
 
 
“You can’t love everyone, Bettina.
 
..and everyone can’t love you..”